The past week has shown no improvement in my bend. I have stayed between 42 and 44 degrees even after vigorous exercise and therapy for it. I’m not discouraged by this fact, though. I know that recovery takes time, and that I will have to work at this for the rest of my life to keep it in check. My muscles are getting stronger, slowly, and I have been trying to walk at least a mile a day if I can manage it.
This week I was finally able to take my dog out for a walk, something I have been wanting to do since the accident. It may seem like the simplest thing that anyone with half an hour of free time could do, but there is so much more effort in it that they don’t realize. For a very long time I could not walk, and when I finally started to I had a hard time keeping myself from falling over. It has taken months of re-learning how to walk again, and adapting my muscles to hold my body stable. Taking Copper for a walk was a huge step in the direction of healing for me, because it took all of my focus and energy for the day to walk along side him with the pulling of the leash, and negotiating rough terrain. I was finally able to hold my core strong enough to stabilize myself for when he would run to one side of the trail to sniff along the grass. I was able to walk at a more consistent pace and work my way down a trail, carefully stepping on gravel and avoiding rocks. I enjoyed nature. Something I have had to be apart from while I healed.
My body has adapted to this new way of life. Though my leg is not strong, I have called on the other muscles around to start picking up the slack. I have the strongest core i’ve ever had, and the new-found stability of a dedicated yogi. I am healing, and though I can’t walk more than a mile right now without needing to rest for quite some time, or stay standing for very long, or work, or hike, I CAN keep building myself up to get back to those things.
“Healing doesn’t mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls our lives.” -Anonymous
Regain your control. Whether it’s injury, loss, addiction… If you are hurting, know that there are people out there who understand. Know that there are people out there who have suffered this too. Know that there is hope and a future. You will overcome, we are incredible. Everyone who has become great has overcome.
Check out this video on breaking through: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jcVK_5nGOcM